Journal #10 Jazz Technique III Class #11

As, I write this entry (Thursday afternoon, following ballet), I'm feeling a bit sick. I hope it doesn't turn into something serious. My schedule is full enough, I can't affoard to be sick!
Tuesday, was a fairly uneventful class! I must admit after awhile, I feel like one class turns into the next! Ideally it would be best if I wrote immediately after class, as to truly express my feelings about class! I think for the most part it went well! I was quite tired on Tuesday (which alas seems to be the norm for Tuesdays this semester). Long, daze beginning at 3:30am and going (in this case) until about 1ish (in the AM of course!)
Aside from that, there were some areas that I felt slowly were improving! I think I am getting a bit more confident in my form, but I still sense at times that I have a tendency to over extend and struggle too with keeping my core centered! Likely one of my greatest challenges still, is mastering a basic turn, and continuing to improve on my spotting! In times past, it seemed as though I had greatly improved, but somehow this semester, that is not the case!
If I were to reflect once again at where I am now, and where I have come from, I would say that yes, I have made progress! But, I do think too, that I busy schedule, full of this and that, causes me to feel more stressed than composed when I dance. I have great desires to see myself achieve things, and yet I don't feel like I have the time or the energy to see those desires realized! Perhaps it's just a bad semester!
As far as personal goals are concerned, I would still very much like to see my strength develop in keeping my center balanced! I think that I need to relax more and not think so much about what I'm doing! Even, if I don't fully understand the step, I should at least strive to emulate what I know of what I've learned! Like a skeliton, if I can slowly work on perfecting the structure the other minute elements will over time fall into place! As my ballet instructor puts it, it becomes more difficult when one tries to "intelectuallize" the movements within a phraze!
So, it continues to be a challenge. Yet, without a challenge, it would not be worth the effort!
Striving for exellence in the simple steps,
The Dancing Devil Dog